Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Stream of Consciousness #7: Staying Up So I Can Learn How To Go To Bed

Less is more, what's in store? Honeybunch, honeycomb, sweet and stupid names, little pieces of nothing that fall, so much nothing nothing nothing things come out of nowhere, but all these things fall away when I look at you, all these things fall away, a conversation I've been waiting to have for years, only to realize you really didn't care, or did you? All these things fall away, all these things fall away, oh these thorns in my side, oh these thorns in my side, I've been filling my mind with poison that I know won't corrupt me until it counts, I'm always mortgaging tomorrow, why do I do that?

What if there really is nothing to worry about, all these things fall away. I was so worried about running into walking shadows but all these things fall away. I was finding ways to trip myself up, but you tripped me up and said all these things fall away. I was looking for a hole, and fell through the other side, you said all these things fall away, away to me.

I was running down a winding road and the sun was falling, I wished that I could stay, I didn't know my name, I couldn't feel my toes, but you said all these things fall away.

All these things fall away, will I only ever be OK, and yes I want to be OK for once.

Before I worry that I'll only ever be OK and no more maybe I should try to just be OK for once.

Before you turn the light out on me can you will away the one thing on my mind? 'Cause I'm a man and there is strength in my hand but I'm a child that needs to be told sometimes. Well I hope you don't mind, I could use a little nurture and maybe this wasn't the future your daddy wished for you to make my worries rhyme.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Stream of Consciousness #6 - Possibilities

When the world is running down, you make the best of what's still around. Got nothing in my mind nothing in my pocket, can I just write song lyrics this whole time, is that OK? I write about sand a lot, Florida was cool, wish I could still be there, doing handstands, Sand City, wish I could hold you right now, hold you tonight, save tonight, fight the break of dawn, oh the things I can't even write on here. Fragile eyes, take the lead, fragile eyes, you will heal them, to look on something that heals your eyes, why do I feel like my well is dry?

Possibilities, potential, mapping out potential like a blueprint, the gravity of the waste, the snap of the wrist, the wasted time, the wasted time, the frisbee days, the parking lot, ooh, that's a good one for the file called nostalgia, the empty parking lots and the sledding hill by the high school baseball/softball fields, singing out and hearing your voice echo back at you, the uninaugural season, the menu, and such, and such...potential dripping out from mistakes, disorder, a disorder that makes you allergic to disorder, everything is always in disorder, that's entropy...potential like the wild and anxious animals, fecundity, we could have a lot of children and raise them all different like experiments, that's a horrible idea. Potential latent in the laws of physics, like a gyroscope, like all the different characters that get a variable in physics class...energy, momentum, force, torque, charge, velocity, radioactivity, magnetic flux...all of those guys. All of those guys in a room drinking beers...all of the things. All of dem. It's not coming, it's not flowing.

Possibilities, my mind is blocking them out because it knows so many of them are bad ones, but you have to be open, you have to be open, you have to swallow the sky, that kind of open, Mario's island in the sky, that's where I want to go and watch the world, check out the Chain Chomp and whoever that was shooting all those giant freaking water ball things or whatever they were. Gravity getting twisted like in Super Mario Galaxy, wish I could play like that, make my own room and turn the gravity on and off as I pleased, or build a room that was a giant jungle gym for adults...does that exist, a jungle gym for adults? I actually really want to go to one now...I will see to that at some point.

Possibilities, potential latent, potential energy, potential energy between you and me, more cliche chemical metaphors, everything is so cliche and bla bla bla...we'll build a bridge across the sea and back...uh, Bono, why would you need to build a bridge back? Just wondering...

Potential, other words for potential, possibilities, perhaps, perchance, happenstance, fragments slipping through my memory, the life of the mind, dreamgirl, will I see her tonight? Maybe I should just go to sleep? Maybe I'm trying to steal too much? Characters in the physics book, frisbees, rollercoasters, the phonograph, the wildcard, the great American wildcard, the fireworks, that one thing that's just there like it's from outer space but everyone just acts like it's cool whatever.